Well Hello again,
Its been some time since ive done this....so bare with me....it seems as though you can never have love, without 2 unnecessary ingredients: heartache and loneliness...Let me start from the very beginning.. See working at Dillards has been a set back for me...The money is good but just soooooo much drama....anyways...I met this guy Gabe at work.....Super awesome but rough around the edges...
- it just gets worse...doesnt it
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softballbiotch- February 8th, 2010
- i dont know blah!!
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- softballbiotch
- March 5th, 2007
cranky
Well what to say?? There are many things on my mind. Yes I know this is a weekly reflective but somehow my heart is compelling me to just state everything that comes to my mind. Why does heart ache hurt?? If emotions come from a state of mind..Why does it hurt deep inside where your soul should be?? The week started off great. Got a few numbers, and did my normal school routine. Hung out with the girls, and just kept to myself. Then bam!!! I just casually go see my ex's crushes page. My heart just dropped!! I had this sense of revenge, and karma belief in my head.. Saying "LORD thy will be done" the thought that GOD takes care of those who love him, and forgive.
My feelings still soar for him! They probably will always! But how can you just turn off your feelings for a person??? Isn't there a light switch?? No of course not!! GOD didn't make it that simple. Yet I know he has a plan for me. Okay back on topic. The basic concepts of school. 1) School= no life only study 2) Drama times three 3) Heartache majority of the time!! I love who I am, just hate that society has taken a turn for the worst. We have become an idealistic, as well as materialistic society, that engulf themselves on pure happinness but yet disregard the happiness of others.
- WTF!!
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- softballbiotch
- September 21st, 2005
nerveous
Ok, well i guess i need to write to get my anxiety or nerveousness out of my mind. You know Rita... the bitch. I have so much to say. Let's start with guy trouble. It's so hard to find a guy that is descent. Majority of all of the male sex at my school are so immature. Although i have had my eye on one particular one , he keeps letting me down. We have so much in common. He likes baseball, i like baseball and softball. He believes in abstenance, as well as i do, we are like the same person, but he just doesn't get the point.. what to do is beyond me. I haven't found the right boyfriend, and i am starting to get irritated. It does get kinda of lonely but i will not settle for less that i deserve. .. School what a drag. I hate Precal it's so freakin hard.. .. Gale Harold, and Garrett Hedlund are so handsome.. Back on topic, What i feel right now is loneliness, nerveousness, anger, and much more it's hard to describe.. I need 2 find someone i feel like i'll crazy.. jk.. I dont feel like writing so till then.. May everyone be safe and secure from Rita.. I love my family, and my friends, it's kinda of frightening what i am going through right now..
bye
love
Krystina
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- softballbiotch
- May 16th, 2005
ecstatic
Well here it goes. Saturday I had a fantastic time. My friends (Drama Club) traveled to San Antonio and had a great deal of fun, just chilling and having a blast getting on rides. I had so much fun i dont even know where to stop so i'll stop here.
If any of the Fair Fanatics are able to obtain this message, I like to say I am overwelmed with happiness. I feel honored by your letters, it truly was a remarkable piece of writing, and I am thankful for your words. It took courage to express your feelings, but what is more important is that you were never made to attend our games, but came voluntarily, which makes it much more effecting. I am truly touched by your words, and I am grateful for every moment our fans were there supporting US, the CHEROKEES.
- Easter and Next Day!!
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- softballbiotch
- March 29th, 2005
- depressed
Hello my listening friend,
Well let me start off saying i had a fantastic Easter. I really enjoyed the mass that evening. But, the happy phase couldn't continue, but i really tried not to let it bother me. So finally the next day is when everything started to become visible. i hate it!! My family is very tight financially. Everything seems to become so stressful whenever we start communicating about our financial problems. But i just keep saying to myself, keep cool, dont worry so much, God has ways of helping. Always have faith that God will help when it is needed. So just breathe and calm down. Our family will get through this stressful phase.
Chow
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- softballbiotch
- March 26th, 2005
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Today has been an okay day. I got to sleep late. o but yesterday was a fun day. i was able to spend the night with a couple of my friends which turned out to be so much fun. neways i must go bc my cousin has a birthday party
chow
- My thoughts on everything holy.!
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- softballbiotch
- March 25th, 2005
confused
I am so stressed. i have many tests and i feel as though i would be able to excel. especially english. sometimes i dont think i will be able to succeed. there is so much on my shoulders, it's beginning to be unbearable. Today i played at G.P. and didn't do that bad. although we lost it seems to me that we didn't. I am tired of all the bull shit that goes on in softball class as well as softball afternoon practice. there is so much animosity towards every person in softball. sometimes i feel like i want to quit but i don't know what brings me back to it. i think it's my parents but i do know that it's also me. i do have heart, and determination, and is starting to build my confidence little by little.
The world will come to an end, but life must be lived. so that i leave you in my confused state.
